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6/27/2006 一个人的旅行 06年6月26日，PM3：03。
西安。
天气，晴。温度，40摄氏度。
一个人背着相机在西安城里游走。不时停下来拍些什么。喜欢一个人旅游，却也害怕一个人的孤单，不习惯和陌生人交谈，所以耳朵里塞着耳机听着当下流行着的乐曲，这样可以给自己消遣，也可以假装没意识到陌生人的搭讪。
用自己的眼睛来观察着这个我现在所在的城市，用相机记录我所看到的事物。
明晃晃的太阳照得我睁不开眼，身体像是在蒸笼里蒸的馒头，热的发烫，很不自在。脸上的汗，混着厚厚的防晒霜，腻腻的，直往下淌。。。。。。
人被晒的晕晕忽忽的，相机在机械的发出“卡卡”声，记录着在我眼前出现的冰冷高大的建筑群体。
耳边突然一阵喧哗。MP3没电了。车来车往的嘈杂声，人来人往的喧闹声。。。。。。浓厚的陕西方言充斥着我的耳朵。
顿时觉得孤独。
一个人在陌生的城市游走。我收集公车上的车票、游览地的门票、当地的报纸，有时甚至是街头散发的传单；我用相机留下某些场景，有意思的或没意思的，美丽的或丑陋的-------以此留下我经历过的时间与空间的证明。
此刻，想起以往，和现在的自己也一样。也许自己给自己形象的定位，永远是拿张地图，背着大大的包，在公车站张望着站牌，猜想着下站的地点是什么，将MP3的音量开到最大，来排遣自己在异乡的孤单和惶恐。
从一个城市到另一个城市。耳边出现过陕西的秦腔，气势磅礴；也出现过吴侬软语，优雅甜美。
奇怪自己为什么不安逸于家的宁静，偏偏将自己一次又一次放逐在他乡，即使在假期也会跑出家门，一个人在他乡思念亲人。。。。。。
也许是天生不安分的细胞在作祟吧。我喜欢看陌生的场景，听陌生的故事，结识能谈的来的很少的陌生的人，开始一段段没有事先安排好的故事。。。。。。
在他乡，独自旅行。。。。。。
6/24/2006 一些零散的事。。。。。。6月22日
考结构，十分不爽！填空、问答各空一题，计算题空了半道，做错的应该是N道（N》＝１）但还是潇洒的提前交卷。其实十分想作弊的。。。。。。
回宿舍睡觉看片，看完《阿司匹林》，２点３０分，关灯睡觉
6月23日
睡到自然醒----1： 00。大叫“我是猪”后起床，然后和宿舍的那帮损友去KTV消遣到7：00。西安连续的高温天气一定是把我弄蔫了，在包厢里我大喊三声“哇，空调”后就睡死过去，被舍友们鄙视。。。当我醒来大展歌喉，吓死一片，被她们逼得再次在角落里睡去！
在秋林公司吃了顿好的，回宿舍上网睡觉---------无聊空虚的生活！
6月24日
再次睡到自然醒，被人鄙视！害怕外面的太阳，在宿舍洗了衣服喝了咖啡看了书上了网吃了饭，又消磨掉一天！
和老爸视频，被批，要我好好读英语。。。。。。
接到双羽的电话，高考离一本分数差了三分，十分郁闷。不知该如何安慰。有时候，学业和爱情是一样的，投入多少，并不意味着你收到的回报一定是多少。有些事，真的还要运气！
明天一定不能如此堕落生活了。。。。。。呵呵！ 6/18/2006 父亲节快乐 人生最美的理想就是睡觉睡到自然醒，数钱数到手抽筋。今天我是睡到自然醒啦，完成了一半理想，哈哈。床下还有三个家伙还正呼呼睡地香。。。。。。今天六点可是要交图的，美女们！！
昨天的英语四六级让很多人郁闷，我哥看来也避免不了这次挂掉的厄运，都节哀顺便吧。
今天父亲节啊，祝我老爸节日快乐啊
 。6/17/2006 快热死了！ 猫在宿舍一下午，原本去陕博拍摄影作业的计划被屋外的太阳支解了，抱着凉凉的水枕，吹着风扇，舒服的睡了一觉。肚子咕咕叫，想想晚上的晚餐应该是红烧土豆鸡肉和豆腐
 ，很幸福啊~~ 今天英语极其郁闷，算了，不提了！某人还很嚣张的拿准确答案来刺激我，哼！！
该看结构了。Fighting！！
6/16/2006 英语复习中。。。。。。 对英语实在是很无奈，这几天常发牢骚，怕是过不了了。小洁今天还笑话我说初中的英语课代表怎会连个四级都怕，实在是对不起老高啊。
呵呵，没办法。在大学里，已经离开中学那成天考试氛围很久了，看着试卷没感觉啊~~希望明天自己能交好运。
有时候真是很悲观的想，这人活着何时能彻底摆脱考试啊。。。。。。 6/14/2006 又是一天 每天晚上热的睡不着，在阳台吹风，看着天亮再在床上趴一会。
每天在宿舍图书馆食堂教室小卖部之间徘徊。
每天看着一堆四级卷子和一本结构书发呆。
每天中午和妈妈打电话，八卦学校的事。
每天趴在教室的窗台上看着楼下的人走来走去，幻想着自己的爱情。
每天一个人下自习，打水，买零食吃。
每天上网无聊的看别人的博客打发时间。
每天上QQ望着一堆头像不知和谁聊，然后隐身。
每天和宿舍那帮没心没肺的女人打打闹闹。
每天会在角落什么也不想的发呆。
每天离不开咖啡和茶，还有闲书。
每天，就这么过。。。。。。
6/9/2006 实习---准备中~~ 俞进军的省美都会让人感到无比郁闷。想想当年钢笔写生时，他指着一堆石头和杂草说“这多么富有诗意啊”，然后西安书院门的居民们看到一群学生坐在某个人家家门口画着一堆石头和杂草。
所以这次去广西我们也免不了去农村喂蚊子，我希望不会太让人失望，不然。。。。。。。
 想去买个很帅的大包包，立志成为背包一族的我以后也有很炫的专业家当了
 ，准备药品、画具、颜料、衣物。。。。。。是不是想的太早了？呵呵，其实我觉得凭我的技巧，搬那么多东西去广西画出来的东东和在西安松园画出来的是一样的效果，不知为什么要跑那么远去装酷———带那么多沉沉的工具，我又没人帮我拎箱子！ 但希望这次旅行给我带的收获大于辛苦，快乐大于郁闷。 转载于一位学长的博客----关于工作和生活Dear Friends.
Ive had several emails and face to face chats with both Xian and Lanzhou students about the future and what it holds. Will a good job come along? What about travel? What about security? Will life be better as age increases? How can true love be found? Here are a few of my own thoughts.
Many students [and friends] admire me for my rich experiences of life. They are envious of my travels to other countries and of the interesting jobs that I have done. They tell me they want the kind of experiences that I have had, and such an interesting life it would be!!! Well, here are a few of my less interesting or easy jobs and experiences, all of which have helped my life to become richer and given me more understanding of what real life is really about.
From 16 until I was about 27, I worked in a factory, hating every moment of the job and being looked down upon as just a stores worker. I was also a fork lift truck driver there, but after a few months of driving this machine, it becomes very boring. I drove it for 9 years. And the pay was very low!!!
I worked as a dish washer in factory canteens and food halls for about 6 months, when I was 27. I had to work under young women of 18, who thought that because they were cooks, they were my boss! And the pay was so low that I needed help to pay my rent!
I worked as a road cleaner and sweeper for a few days, again when I was about 27. This I liked but everyone who saw me looked at me with prejudice in their eyes! My Father was quite shocked when he saw me! Everyone looks down on street sweepers yet without them, we would live in absolute filth! How much more necessary these jobs are than many more important and prestigious?jobs!
I worked for 1 1/2 years under a racist, Pilipino boss and two Pilipino women, [who thought they were my boss] and was treated like the 'run around and do everything I want' boy. I was 28 - 29 years old at the time, and was paid far less than everyone else, but expected to be much more flexible in what I did. My job was to look after disabled people, clean their house and do basic things to help them; feed them, wash them, shop for them etc. I was really treated like a dog by the boss.
I worked for the homeless in the UK, with a great boss, and had some great work mates, but was often burgled and had things stolen from my house, by the homeless, whilst I was working at night, helping them. My pay was so low that even the government helped me to pay my rent! Also, I was often verbally abused and even physically attacked by the very people I was trying to help. So much for respect!
I worked in Hong Kong, under a few western and Chinese bosses. I was not even allowed to go to the toilet, during a meeting without asking permission. I worked 6 days a week, all day and night being on duty; doing both day and night shifts. I was allowed 10 hours off a week - if lucky. One night I was very sick, vomiting and diarrhoea all night, but when I went to one of the bosses, she just screamed that I was not getting the day off. I only wanted a tablet to calm my stomach, so that I could work. She apparently had no time to listen to my short request and assumed I was pushing for time off!
The guys we were looking after and working with were often quite rude to us foreign men, and we lived in dormitories of 6 ?30 people with no privacy, no personal space and no chance to really settle down due to being moved from one house to another with sometimes only 10 minutes notice. This was my most difficult job and guess what ?it was a voluntary job ?no pay!
Welcome to the 'real world of work, life and experience'. Being a student is quite an easy life, isn't it?! All I can say is job hopping is not the answer. Stick with a job long enough to learn the lessons you need to learn, and once you have learnt the lesson, then move on to another job. However difficult this one may seem, stick with it until the lessons are learnt.
Patience, endurance and forgiveness of others do not come easy, yet difficult jobs are great ways to train us in learning these skills. Moving job every time it becomes uncomfortable, boring, difficult or challenging will do nothing for you except postpone the lesson you are supposed to be learning. Also, new bosses are not impressed with people who job hop and are looking for people with skills and the ability to stick to a job for a year or two at least! Even if it is boring or does not pay well!!!
Also, many of you leave college expecting a high wage. Why? Most of you have little real working experience. Go and get a common job with basic wages, and get as much experience as possible. Then, after 6 month or so, once you have proved yourself as a worker, then begin to think about a pay rise or better paid job. Done expect a high salary in your first proper job; you have done nothing to prove that you can even do the job!
And if you do get a high paying job early in your career, done think you are better than others on less pay and lower positions in the company. They probably have much more life experiences and knowledge of how to do a job than you. You just have knowledge from university books! They have knowledge from life!
Enjoy the new challenge, whether it is further study or a new job or career! It will be a challenge ?and if you move away from your family or friends, it will be a lonely challenge. But how much you will learn! All your university studies will seem like nothing compared to what life has to teach you! As I have already said; enjoy the challenge of real life!?
You are welcome to contact me any time, and I will try to help you with any job or new situation problems, using my full experience of life? But done expect me to have every answer ?life is your teacher, not me!
David 6/6/2006 微笑-----明天很美 今天收到老哥的信息，06年06月06日是个很吉祥的日子
一辈子一次哦！！明天就是高考了，想想自己两年前的今天还担心的睡不着在床上啃着饼干呢：）这些日子都成回忆了。。。。。。 双羽和陶陶明天就要上考场了，祝你们好运。一个是和自己在一个老师那学二胡五年的琴友；一个是从小在一个院子长大的姐们，经常偷偷拿出妈妈的裙子和高跟鞋来穿，偷偷拿着妈妈的化妆品一股脑往脸上抹，为对方包庇干的坏事，把邻居男孩打的满院子跑。。。。。。
都成往事了，都各奔东西，为自己的将来奔波了。不知你们的理想会不会成真，但相信天道酬勤，我们都很努力的。等我暑假实习回来，吃你们的状元宴哦
 6/4/2006 想像鸵鸟一样把自己隐藏起来----谁也不想理 从小习惯了自己做决定，对任何事和任何人，也对自己的决定负责任。一个人这么走下来，习惯一个人思考一个人解闷，真的习惯了。
这次又是在十字口的选择，谁能告诉我什么是正确答案？我是不是非得被所有绝望袭击的支零破碎的时候，才能彻底的去面对现实，还是像鸵鸟一样埋在沙堆里什么也不理，让自己得到保护，不再受伤害？？
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失眠，看着太阳升起，我却看不到自己的明天该怎样去续写。。。。。。 6/3/2006 心情很爽 昨天被小鸡拉着上街了，十分有收获啊，看中一款十分便宜又好看的凉鞋，高跟的，买了就穿着回学校了。虽还穿不惯有跟的鞋，走起路来还颤颤的，不过心情很好。新鞋配热裤，已经颠覆了以前那个乖乖女的形象了。 听小洁说，上中学那会，所有人都把我看成好好学习天天向上的国家栋梁，乖乖的样子，所以听说我大学里谈恋爱都十分惊讶诧异，哈哈。若如今他们看到我现在的样子是不是再次大跌眼镜呢？
 今天西安下雨了，所以想偷懒不去教室画图了，可周一要交作业啊~~想想命真是苦！！不过这点郁闷的心情还是被昨天的超好心情覆盖住了，呵呵。。。。。。
走人！画图去！ 6/1/2006 儿童节快乐 20岁还过儿童节是不是有点可笑?被小哲拉去KFC吃儿童套餐,呵呵,真是拿这个家伙没办法,不过很开心.长这么大还头一次去KFC拿那种孩子玩的小玩具,看着坐在对面吃的香玩的HIGH的小哲,心里竟十分温暖.他像个大孩子,给人带来快乐.突然有点怜悯自己,似乎自己已经很久没这么没心没肺的过日子了.
也许当人的心里没被划上伤痕的时候,真是可以没心没肺的过好开心的日子,像现在的小哲,可是我们都要长大的,终是要告别童年......
对过去说再见吧,既然不能拒绝成长,就去接受它.
微笑,对昨天说再见
也谢谢小哲的节日礼物，祝我们好梦．．．．．． |
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